Since January I have been struggling to lose some weight. I have had some ups and downs. It feels like I've had more downs then ups. I think that's how most everyone feels when they are trying to improve something about themselves. Lately I have been feeling like I am standing on the precipice of change. Yesterday I crossed over and hit a huge milestone. I am no longer obese, just overweight and have lost a total of 20lbs. I still have a long ways to go. The feeling that I have right now is hard for me to describe. One of my new favorite songs came on the radio this morning and it described perfectly the journey that I am on. The song was The Climb by Miley Cirus. Yes, I know, I am a cheeseball. In fact, I've been waiting for this song to come on. As I was driving down the road listening to and singing along with the song I began to cry. This song spoke to my soul and it is now my new theme song. Yes, again I know that I am a cheeseball. But here are the lyrics:I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another Mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side.
It's the Climb.
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking!!!
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another Mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side.
It's the Climb.
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking!!!
Weight loss has always been a mountain to me. This time it's about my battle, about the climb. The things I'm going through and my experiences that will get me to the other side. Who knows who I will be on the other side, who knows what I am going to look like when I get there. I don't know how long it's going to take me, but I'm in it till I reach the other side. As I was singing and crying I realized that I am in the middle of my climb. I have made it half way and I can't believe how many times I've picked myself up and dusted myself off and kept on going. It is empowering and I can't wait to see where my climb takes me.
12 comments:
Wow...that was inspiring to say the least. I am so proud of you. It is hard...and sometimes I feel I set myself up to fail at things so I can tell myself, "I told you so..."
Is it really hard to succeed or it is it the difficulty to believe we deserve it?
Please, keep going...to lose 20 pounds seems more like the victory rather than the climb. That is simply amazing. And, you know what?
You deserve it.
Oh, sorry, it is me again...I was talking to Diena and we were talking about the Biggest Loser. One guy said, "Bob told me to be the man that my family sees me as.."
I thought of Christ. He sees are abilities and strengths, when sometimes we only see our weaknesses.
It sounds like you are being the woman that Christ sees you as...
Congratulations! A 20 pound weight loss is amazing!!! Good for you, your awesome!!
What a beautiful post! I like Mylie Cyrus too.
I'm so proud of you for losing 20 lbs!! Since I got married, I've put on 100 lbs and it's been the most difficult reality that I've had to face up to this point in my life. Most of the weight is stress weight and will be very, very difficult to lose, but I know that if a busy mother of 6 can lose 20 lbs, then I can lose at least 20 lbs. You know, there are a few things that have pushed me over the edge and have given me the desire to lose weight; not being able to pick something up off of the floor in my car after I've dropped it, not being able to comfortably sit in a movie theater seat, (it sucks a$$ having to lift one of the armrests up just so my flab can be unrolled comfortably). It's all of the small things that really bother me. Not only those things, but Michelle and I are going to start trying to have a baby and I sure as hell don't want to be the fat ba$t@rd father that can't play with his own kids because he gets too tired getting out of his chair to get a drink from the fridge. I know that I can do it, but I also acknowledge that I can't do it on my own. My success will largely depend on the Lord and His help. Your example, I feel, is part of that help. Thanks for sharing!
Sweet Caroline,
It's hard not to focus on our weaknesses. But that's not what the Lord wants for us. I hope that through this journey I will discover who that person the Lord truly wants me to be.
Ryan,
I know you can do it!!! It's hard a lot of the time. But the changes that you will make through your journey will make you such a stronger, confident person. I am here to help too!!! I want you to succeed!! I know you can. You have the power!!!
Amberlyn,
I found your blog while I was "blog-hopping" yesterday. I was commenting on my cousins blog and clicked on a couple of blogs that were linked to hers...and your blog popped up!! FUNNY! How do you know Lisa Pike??
Anyhow...I think you look amazing! And losing 20 pounds is a GREAT accomplishment! I need some of your enthusiasm to rub off on me and get me motivated!! WAY TO GO!
BTW...a huge THANKS again for all of your help, time and preparation for our YW broadcast dinner...It was delicious! I think you (and all of your ward helpers) are great! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
You are really looking good, Amberlyn! I mean it. And I see you out a lot walking/running and it really serves as an inspiration for me to get in my workout too, if I haven't already, so thanks and good job!!
I can't wait to see your cute buns next week!
Amberlyn, you are amazing. I always feel like I can do better after reading your blog. You are a great example to me.
You look fabulous and everytime I see you out walking it motivates me.
Way to GO AMBERLYN!!! I'm so proud of you! You are lookin' GOOD! :D
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