Why Me?

Have you ever asked yourself the question or thought to yourself, Why Me? I have been asking myself this question since getting pregnant with Grace. Why does the Lord have so much confidence in me to trust me with 6 of his choice spirits. I never wanted 6 children. Growing up I always imagined myself as a single mother with one daughter living in an apartment. I don't know why this is how I thought my life would turn out. My life couldn't be more opposite of my childhood fantasy. As I thought about this some more, I came to realize that the Lord sends us trials in many shapes and sizes. Some people are tried through not being able to have children, or losing a precious child, or even through miscarriage (or several), or by being ask to have more children then they think they are capable of raising. But the one thing that gives me strength, and is the one thing that got me through having my twins and Grace, is that the Lord knows me. He knows me better then anyone else. He knows my strengths, my weaknesses, and what I am truly capable of. That knowledge gives me the strength to go on each and every day. That is one of the reasons why I feel guilt (thanks BFF guilt) when I neglect to pray. Who better to help me with my trial, then my Heavenly Father. Who better to help me raise these half dozen children then the one person who knows each one of them better then I ever will. It's a good thing He is merciful and forgives us of our shortcomings. Or I would be failing miserably.